Like, I really wish I was lying. But….. I ain’t.
It’s no secret that I have some very sorry social skills, although no one would ever really KNOW it because, well..I don’t always SHOW it.
I think it all has to do with the fact that I don’t know HOW to be social? I mean, besides the whole “hey, how are you? What you be reading lately?”
Besides all that good stuff, I really have no clue of what it MEANS to be *gulp* SOCIAL.
I think I’m really bad at this IRL. It’s really quite sad actually. I just…can’t. In real life social interaction where people
How many of us have a fear of being judged?
I think once I start doing it more and more, like LEGIT, FORCING MYSELF TO DO IT, I think I’ll get better at it. But pfft, let’s be for real here, I think half of us book worms, bloggers are KINDA just like that. It’s in our chromosomes. Our blood cells. Our bones. (Ehh.. you catch my drift) so yeah, I think some of us are more comfortable online whole some of us are more comfortable with face to face interaction. (I don’t happen to fall into either ONE of these catagories, no matter how much I want to.
Like this story I’m about to tell you (well, in its essence, it isn’t REALLY a story, maybe just like one or sentences) is what happened to me, which is something that tends to always happen to me.
AN ACCURATE EXAMPLE OF MY UNASHAMED ANTI-SOCIALNESS.
Person I know: *Shopping for a bag of Jalapeño Cheetos*
Me: *Wanting bag of Jalepeño Cheetos as well, but pfft in know that person and am at the height of my anti-socialness.* *makes an attempt to avoid eye contact, slowly back away, and turn*
Person I know: *turns at just the convienent moment and sees me right before I can hyper kick run around the corner*
“Hey Kei! What’s going on?”
Me: *shoulders slump when I realize I’ll now have to do the “social talking thing like likes normal human*
Friendly person: “What you up to giirrlll? haven’t seen you in FO-EVA.”
Me: …..*bright smile* “Oh haaayyyyyy. I didn’t see you there.
Pretty much sums up my life/ every social encounter minus the bag of Jalapeño Cheetos, unless which of course you WANT the bag of Cheetos and that is totally fine with me.
But like I said before, I think most of it has to do with the fact that I’m afraid of being judged? Or freezing up and saying something totally stupid, (which usually happens like 98.9997766 of the time. (Believe me, I can tell you some stories) I don’t want to look or sound stupid. I don’t want to be embarrassed. I WANT TO be up to date on current events and the “lingo” of the 21st century. It’s quiet sad.
Take for example, my sister (19) told me one day to “get-out-of-my-feelings” of course my response was to look at her confused. Her response was to pat me on the shoulder, shake her head and say, “Keionda, it means you need to quit being so emotional.”
But it’s awkward situations like that that always happens to me. IT’S ALWAYS ME. THIS IS WHY I DON’T TALK TO PEOPLE. FO REAL.
Are you guys feeling me? LIKE ARE YOU REALLY FEELING ME? If you are, can you relate to anything that I’ve said? What are some stories that you guys have run into whwre you were just so socially awkward that you wanted to promptly hide your head in like, a brown paper bag? For life?