This post may or may not be kind of heavyish. But it’s also a chance for me to pour out some things that have been on my kind lately: Being a writer, yo, it ain’t easy. Let me tell you.
You go through so many things. [Just to name a few]:
- Insecurity (Will anyone like my stuff?)
- Doubt (Pfft. Like I doubt anyone will want to read or even care about what I have to say.)
- Meh Writing. (You don’t feel very much about writing today. But then you KNOW you have to because gosh, you can’t just NOT write. Pfft.)
- Blah blah blah I HAS no creativity. (Brain farts, anyone? Very. Big. Ones.)
These basically all tie in together but my point of numbering them for you was to show you these things exist. And I can’t tell you how many times I almost talked myself out of writing (whether it be for my novels or my blog) –》 ‘Tis tough, tough, tough.
And the worstest part?
Most of these insecurities are unrelenting and stubborn. They prowl inside my mind on a daily basis…. [like a 24/7 daily basis].
So the other day while I was going along and being too cool for school like I always am, I finally considered the fact that… ‘holy crap, someone is going to read my books one day. And…what if they don’t like it?’
It’s not an easy feeling for me to be so open and vulnerable. Gosh–》 it was so hard. Mostly because I didn’t know how it would be perceived or I didn’t think anyone would care or I would be judged. 《–
But in those good days, the creativity is SLAMMIN’ THE vibes are all GOOD. But sometimes life had to throw in those meh and blah days in your face. It’s like a larger than average tennis ball ram sacking you in the face. Hurts really bad and can knock you down and take away all your confidence.
But what I love? Is that I have you guys to always pick me up and BE THERE for me. I’ve never met any of you (’tis my dream, yo) but still you guys are always so…just so…COOL. Being with you guys is like starting a new book for the first time. You know, that feeling of excitement and exhilaration. Tear. :’) There’s nothin’ like it.
Sorry guys, just wanted to get that off my chest. So tank you, tank you for taking the time to read it. Well….that is, if you didn’t skip to the very end. I know who you are. Yeah. I see you. Ha. No I can’t. I don’t have super powers–》that would be awesome though.
Over to you:
What difficulties do or did you face while writing? Do we have any in common? Tell me everything!